it's all gone

so, i'm just thinking like this dissertation sucks and i am totally depressed that i can't get anything done and drama drama drama blah blah blah.

i need to stop socializing so much. no, that's not true. but something.

ok, so the basic situation is that i don't think walker's stuff works, but i am so attached to it. shelby pointed out tonight that it matches my worldview, where i'm coming from. this is true, but it is not successful or good for dealing with race.

perhaps i can be helped here by looking at my other people.

i am stuck. whatever. stuck is just s condition of the mind. people still get up and right the next day and that's all i can do.